What It Feels Like to Be Stalked (Let Alone Three Times)

Foreground of photo has face of frightened twenty-something with long hair looking behind at blurred background of person followingStalking. The word alone inspires fear and anxiety in many people. For those of us who have experienced it, it may conjure painful images we never stop seeing, no matter how hard we try.

Although the term is used far too casually in some parts of our society, stalking, as defined, is serious stuff. A crime in many jurisdictions, it generally involves unwanted or obsessive attention, following, harassing, or monitoring behavior that might cause a reasonable person to experience fear.

One out of every six women is stalked in her lifetime, according to data compiled by the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. Men are stalked too, of course, but much less frequently (one in 19).

I’ve been stalked three times.

The first time it happened, I was around 21 years old. It was 11 at night, I was walking home from a friend’s house, and I noticed someone was following me in a car. This was in the suburbs, and there was no one else out on the street. At first I thought maybe it was my imagination, so I turned up a one-way street going the wrong direction for the driver, expecting him to continue on his way and not follow me. He followed me anyway, and that’s when I knew I was in trouble. Then he got out of his car and exposed himself.

I ran to the nearest house with lights on and began ringing the doorbell and knocking. The man drove away. Then I realized no one was home in the house I had chosen as my refuge—or maybe they just didn’t want to answer. I hid, cowering on the stoop, and looked around carefully. Finally, when I thought it was safe, I fled.

When I was in my early 30s I was stalked again. Although I wasn’t threatened physically, I was tormented for several months and was left terrified for a long time.

I lived in an apartment house. My apartment was opposite the service stairs, and sometimes I thought I saw someone hiding in the stairwell near the door to my apartment, watching. This happened repeatedly, but I never actually saw anyone’s face—just a disappearing shadow. I almost didn’t believe there was anyone there; the first time, I wondered if it was my imagination. I told my husband, but he never saw anybody and thought it was nothing to worry about.

Then a man got hold of my phone number somehow and called me repeatedly for months. This was the same guy who hung out in the stairwell, I figured. For me, this was confirmation he was real; this was not my imagination. I almost wasn’t sure if that made things better or worse. The only thing I was sure about was I was petrified.

I was often home alone with my new baby at that time. The man phoned repeatedly and seemed to know my every move. I was afraid to leave the house and afraid to stay home, too. I was scared to answer the phone. I told my husband again, but nothing ever happened when he was home. I felt like he didn’t take my fears seriously, and I was so scared. He suggested maybe it was just a lot of wrong numbers. Was I exaggerating?

I wasn’t sleeping much because I had a new baby, and on top of that, now I was too scared to sleep. Every time I sat down to relax, the phone rang, and there was nothing I could do but endure—I could never let my guard down. I started having nightmares.

Sometimes a man with a disguised voice phoned to say nasty things. Other times, I just heard someone breathing. It went on and on, and finally my husband started to worry, too. Once, he intercepted one of the nasty calls and told the guy off, but the calls went on anyway. This was in the time before phone numbers came up when you were called, before you could block specific numbers. I was being tortured, and it felt like it would last forever with no way out. I began feeling helpless and weak. I got very depressed. How could I protect my baby if I couldn’t defend myself?

I contacted the police. The phone company put a tap on my phone, but the person never stayed on long enough to make an ID. A police officer advised me to buy a whistle, and when the person phoned the officer told me to answer the call with a piercing blast of the whistle. That was okay with me. I wanted to blow this guy’s eardrums out! I wanted to cause him as much pain as he was causing me. I wanted revenge. But most of all, I just wanted him to leave me and my baby alone.

Even if you’ve never been physically hurt, the emotional disturbance of knowing someone is out there watching, listening to, or otherwise intending to scare or intimidate you is dreadful, especially if you think you’re trapped and can’t do anything.

The whistle worked. He stopped calling. I wondered who he was, of course, and eventually I found out the person stalking me was my neighbor, somebody I used to smile at and say, “Have a nice day!” to when we bumped into each other in the elevator. He lived two doors away from me.

That all ended a long time ago, but I still always check to make sure that the door to the service stairwell in front of my apartment is securely closed.

Just recently, someone stalked me on the message app on my phone. I’ve blocked that person—one benefit of technology, though there are downsides, too, that allow for cyberstalking.

Some of the people I see in therapy have also been stalked and badly frightened, like I was. One young woman got extra locks put on her door after she broke up with her boyfriend. He called her repeatedly, as often as 20 times a day, and lurked on the street near where she lived. She gave his contact information to her sister and to a friend and instructed them to go to the police if something happened to her—and made sure her ex knew it.

Even if you’ve never been physically hurt, the emotional disturbance of knowing someone is out there watching, listening to, or otherwise intending to scare or intimidate you is dreadful, especially if you think you’re trapped and can’t do anything. Except for a situation like the first one, where I believed I was in immediate physical danger, authorities advise people not to try stopping stalking behavior by themselves, as that could provoke the person to get more aggressive and violent.

They have a point. I’m scared just thinking about the idea. But while I hope this article doesn’t provoke anybody, I won’t be scared into silence. People who stalk tend to try to bully their targets into silence so they can continue their harmful and potentially criminal actions.

What to Do If You Are Stalked

If you believe you are being stalked, the U.S. Department of Justice advises you to trust your instincts and take the behavior seriously.

  • Your first duty is to protect yourself. If you’re in immediate danger, call the police. Do what you need to do to find safety while you await help: run away, make a lot of noise, or otherwise try to let others know what is going on.
  • Keep a record of what is happening and when, especially if the situation is ongoing. Save any evidence you have—emails, messages, physical items.
  • If you feel comfortable doing so, connect with an advocacy organization that can support you and walk you through your options. One such outlet is the National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE.
  • Experiencing stalking can be quite traumatic, and it can be particularly helpful to seek the support of a mental health professional who works with trauma and domestic violence cases. Some of us know what you’re going through, at least to some extent. Regardless, expect us to do everything we can to help you get what you need so you can feel safe again and heal.


  1. National intimate partner and sexual violence survey: 2010 summary report. (2010). Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. Retrieved from https://www.cdc.gov/violenceprevention/pdf/nisvs_executive_summary-a.pdf
  2. Stalking. (2016, January 6). The United States Department of Justice. Retrieved from https://www.justice.gov/ovw/stalking

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  • Mandy W

    January 13th, 2017 at 7:31 AM

    I had a good friend from high school who was eventually killed by the man who stalked her. She did all the right things, got the restraining order, but a piece of paper isn’t going to stop someone who is determined to inflict pain. Sadly she left behind a little girl who now has to be raised by her grandparents. Very sad situation

  • Lynn

    January 14th, 2017 at 11:27 AM

    Yes, Mandy, sad and tragic.

  • Andrea

    January 13th, 2017 at 10:32 AM

    This has to be such a terrible feeling. Please don’t blame yourself although I am sure that there have been times when you are like what am I doing to encourage this? The answer is nothing. There is something that is very messed up this person to even be doing this to you and you have to think about your own personal safety.

  • Lynn

    January 15th, 2017 at 11:07 AM

    Thank you!

  • will

    January 14th, 2017 at 12:19 PM

    Frightening and a blatant disregard for ones privacy

  • Lynn

    January 15th, 2017 at 11:07 AM

    That’s for sure, Will.

  • Collin

    January 16th, 2017 at 7:03 AM

    This is no excuse, that’s for sure, but I am sure that in this person’s mind they are not “stalking” you but instead they are trying to get some attention from you.
    And just like a child who has been denied this they don’t really care if the attention that they receive is for good behavior or bad behavior; the only thing that matters to them is that it made you sit up and pay attention.
    I know that there have been many cases where this has turned deadly so whether you think that this is harmful or not, if you are doing it you need to stop or if it is happening to you then you have to immediately seek out help.
    You never know how quickly something can go from innocent to deadly.

  • Tami

    January 17th, 2017 at 8:19 AM

    My daughter has been confronting this somewhat in her first semester and she says the guy is harmless but I am still encouraging her to at least file a report on campus.

  • Lynn

    January 17th, 2017 at 2:14 PM

    Tami, I don’t know what the behavior it is that she is confronting, but if she feels hassled she should file a report. She may not be the only woman who is having problems with this person, and the authorities should know about it.

  • Lynn

    January 17th, 2017 at 2:15 PM

    Collin, well said! Thank you.
    Take care,

  • Tami

    January 19th, 2017 at 11:07 AM

    You are right. I think that I have got to do more to encourage her to file some kind of report with someone. I would never be able to forgive myself if this person wound up hurting her or someone else but yet we had never said anything to anyone.

  • Lynn

    January 19th, 2017 at 2:42 PM

    Glad to help. Let me know what happens.
    Take care,

  • Connor

    January 20th, 2017 at 1:47 PM

    I guess when I first read this I thought automatically that stalking had to be more about a ling term behavior but you are saying that even one incident toward someone could be stalking them if it has given them a fright like this?

  • Lynn

    January 22nd, 2017 at 2:39 PM

    Yes I am Connor. This man followed me for blocks. with malicious intent.

  • Tami

    January 23rd, 2017 at 2:44 PM

    Quick update- we called campus police today and filed a complaint. I am hoping that they will talk to this young man soon and we can all get a little peace of mind. I have asked her to come home for a few weeks but she thinks that this would be sending the wrong message, admitting defeat or fear, so we have just notified counselors on campus as well as campus police. She has promised to go nowhere alone for now until we know this is resolved.

  • Lynn

    January 24th, 2017 at 5:34 AM

    Thanks, Tami, for keeping me in the loop. Filing a complaint is helpful for everybody– including the young man. Notifying school and police was a good idea. What is their protocol for follow up, do you know?
    Take care,

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