Coming to Terms with Parents’ Feelings of Being Dishonored

GoodTherapy | Coming to Terms with Parents’ Feelings of Being DishonoredIn many families, the belief that children must honor their parents is a given. It may be seen as a tenet of the family’s culture, religion, or may be so fundamental that it is experienced as a rule of nature. In any particular family, the meaning of honoring one’s parents can vary from total obedience to respectfully listening to the wishes, perspectives, requests, etc., that parents express. In any particular family, the consequences of dishonoring a parent can range from mild feelings of anger, hurt, and sadness to intense anger, disappointment, extreme hurt, and disownment. (I am not considering the kinds of families which go to extremes which could result in honor killings.

In families with intense and powerful beliefs that children must honor their parents by sharing their points of view and behaving accordingly, children learn that any attempt to differentiate themselves from their parents by having separate, diverse perspectives or needs is unacceptable. Growing up, they learn what consequences to expect should they express their separate, differentiated selves when they are in conflict with family values. For children who struggle with these feelings, the dilemma of how to honor one’s parents and still be “true” to oneself is not easily resolved.

It is hard to imagine, even in families and cultures with strict admonitions not to depart from parental ways, that children don’t have thoughts that differ from what parents want. To protect themselves and preserve the parent-child relationship, children develop ways of coping. Some unconsciously dissociate (not be consciously aware of) their conflicting wishes, needs, and thoughts. Others suffer quietly and internally with the conflicts between what they think and desire for themselves and their wishes not to hurt, anger, disappoint, or shame their parents.

In my work as a therapist, I often encounter people who seek therapy when they can no longer contain these conflicts and feel that any choice they make between what their parents wish for them and what they want for themselves is unbearable. (Here I am not considering people who dissociate.) Most of these people express loving feelings toward their parents. They are vulnerable to feelings of selfishness, self-betrayal, fear of angering or disappointing parents, and pain about hurting parents. There may be intense shame that their thoughts and feelings are not those of a good child and that their choices could dishonor and shame the parent in the family or community.

As a therapist who values self-determination, individuation, and agency, it is essential that I recognize and respect the value systems that people have internalized. There are no rights and wrongs here. Each person I work with needs to be helped to understand, as much as possible, what his or her conflicts are about, and which choices result in the most tolerable consequences. Therapy has to facilitate the process of making the intolerable feelings more tolerable.

“Lucy” is a 26-year-old Asian woman who came to my office racked with conflict. She and her 29-year-old brother were born in the United States; her parents were born in Asia, where they met and married. They came to the U.S. before the children were born. Most of Lucy’s aunts and uncles emigrated around the same time as her parents and she now has a large extended family, mostly in the Northwest. Lucy came to New York to go to graduate school for fine arts. She met Peter, who is not Asian, in one of her classes two years ago, and Peter has asked her to marry him.

Lucy told me, “I love him so much, but I think it will kill my parents. I haven’t told them about him. When I’ve gone home for vacations, they always want to fix me up with someone from my culture, but I’ve managed to get around it. I also haven’t let Peter know how much of a problem it is for me. I don’t think I can keep up this charade. I keep thinking maybe I should just marry him and never tell them. I don’t know how Peter would feel about that. I can’t imagine giving him up, and I feel so selfish. But if I tell them, I can imagine my mother sobbing hysterically and never getting over the hurt. I can see my Aunt Lynn saying something mean to my mother about how she has such a dishonorable and disrespectful daughter. My mother will die of shame. What am I going to do?”

“Wow,” I said. “You are up against a lot of powerful forces that are tearing you apart and making the possibility of coming to a decision a horrible proposition. You can’t win. But you obviously can’t continue to stay in what must feel like a terrible war going on inside you.”

“Yes, that’s it!” Lucy said. “How can I possibly make any choice and be OK with it?”

“I don’t know that you will ever be fully OK with any choice you come to, but I’d like to help you be OK enough with how to proceed with your life,” I said.

Lucy and I used our sessions to explore her understanding of her family, her culture, and their values. We clarified the powerful nature of respect and honor for the wishes of the elders in the family and the importance of tradition. Lucy acknowledged that her wanting to marry someone from another culture was especially threatening. It not only was going against what her parents wanted, but this particular act—marrying a non-Asian man—would be seen as a public announcement of going against parental wishes.

“I didn’t have the words for it before,” Lucy said. “It seems this is not a private conflict between me and my parents. It is there for all to see. I am such a bad daughter. My brother and all my cousins have married within our culture. It will bring such shame to my family. I don’t know if I could do this to them.”

I asked Lucy if she was worried about anything other than the impact on her parents and family if she were to marry Peter. She thought for a while and started to cry softly. “I love them so much,” she said. “I worry that they will never forgive me, that they will hate me. I’ll be all alone.”

Lucy began to sob. “What if they refuse to be my children’s grandparents? What kind of family will I bring my children into? How can I do this?”

It was apparent that Lucy had kept her family totally in the dark about Peter. I wondered if they were as clueless as she thought. I also began to wonder with Lucy about some theoretical possibilities (not suggestions): What would she guess would happen if she casually mentioned that she had a date with this man Peter to her mother? Her father? Brother? A cousin? Would there be different responses? Would anybody seem interested or excited for her? These questions created some thoughts that surprised both Lucy and me. She realized that there would probably be different responses. She was pretty sure her cousin Cindy would be really into it and it wouldn’t be a big deal. Then she thought her brother might be OK with it, too. She felt her father would get cold and withdrawn to express his anger, and she was certain that her mother would be inconsolable, hurt, and ashamed.

As Lucy and I continue to examine the issues and explore them from all angles, it doesn’t feel as hopeless as when we first began talking. Lucy is planning to talk to her brother. This is an opening up by including a family member in the secret of Lucy and Peter. Perhaps Lucy will find an ally in the family. She has a fantasy of introducing Peter to her brother. Another breakthrough has been that Lucy has told Peter about her conflicts and her worries. His comforting response and willingness to let her find her way through this dilemma has strengthened her resolve to find some emotionally acceptable resolution for herself.

In our explorations, it was clear that growing up, Lucy had been successful hiding differences with her parents. When she felt strongly that she wanted or thought something that they would disapprove of, she kept it a secret. She had never really disobeyed them in any serious way. She had always been able to contain her conflict and struggle internally.

Considering marrying Peter was the first time she could not keep her conflict inside. Now that her struggle is more out in the open, she is in the process of determining how and if to keep it private or if it is safe enough to make it more external. Her consideration of including her brother, for example, could lead to a conflict between the two. The fact this is a consideration for Lucy moves the conflict resolution process to a new arena.

It is hard to imagine that Lucy’s family will come to fully embrace Peter and/or that Lucy will feel totally untroubled by a choice to marry Peter. Although it seems that Lucy is trying to find a way to be OK with marrying Peter, at any time in Lucy’s struggle to decide what and who to honor, she could choose her parents. For example, Lucy has told me that she could never marry Peter and not tell. She also could never tolerate her parents disowning her. So there is still work for Lucy to do to as she focuses on resolving her conflict. Hopefully, it will result in an outcome that feels acceptable.

Note: To protect privacy, names in the preceding article have been changed and the dialogues described are a composite.

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  • Sam

    April 23rd, 2014 at 6:52 AM

    It has to be difficult to think that you are letting your parents down in some way or that they are somehow disappointed in you. With that being said though, there does come a time when you have to remember that it is more important to make yourself feel ok and not sweat so much how everyone else feels. It is not always our job to make others happy, that’s something that they need to do on their own. Just like you are the one in charge of your own happiness and no one esle. I think that this is what I would think about the most if trying to work out a tough situation like this.

  • luan

    April 23rd, 2014 at 10:35 AM

    You know, if my kids are happy then why should I think that this is all about me? Be happy for them.

  • Jill

    April 24th, 2014 at 3:31 AM

    This must be a cultural thing that I am unfamiliar with because my parents never made me feel like I had to do anything for them specifically, only that they were proud of me no matter what.
    I know that there have been times when I have made choices that were probably not the one that they would have chosen for me, I think that there is not one person alive who could say that they have never let their family down in some way; but I always knew that they still loved me and would not disown me for those choices.
    They were the ones who always had my back and I have theirs. I guess since that’s my only parenting style that I know then this is how I will continue (I hope!) with my own children.

  • Carver

    April 24th, 2014 at 2:01 PM

    There are times when I think that many parents would be alright with their child’s decisions butt hen they are afriad of what others in the culture will then think of them for accepting this and it becomes a huge viscios cycle that continues to play out. Eventually there will always be someone who ends up hurt but you have to think that if your parents love you then they are going to accept you for who you are and will stop trying to make you be something and love someone that you don’t. That would always be the hope, but I guess not necessarily the reality.

  • arthur

    April 25th, 2014 at 3:50 AM

    Just be like me… tell them to get over it or they will lose out on all of the great things you have ahead
    they finally saw the error of their ways and came around to laying off all the tears and the guilt

  • Simone

    April 26th, 2014 at 10:55 AM

    You would think that in this day and time there wouuld not be families who still struggle with this but I suppose that for some the beliefs and ideals still run very deep for those who still have one foot in the ways of older traditions. Again like in so many others cases though there is too much pain to have to be lived with to make this something that should stay around.

    I would be sick to think that I had to choose between family and something else just because they did not approve of my choices. It would make me want to remind them that they made me, made me strong and made me competent and that this alone should tell them that they should be able to trust and respect the choices that I am making.

  • alli

    April 27th, 2014 at 4:56 AM

    Is it so wrong to stop and consider your parents’ feelings about something before you go and make a rash decision? These are the people who have raised you, who have put their entire heart and soul into loving you and providing for you. They at least deserve some consideration when I am making huge life decisions that could affect them as well as me. I am not saying that when they feel has to dictate your every move, but what I am saying is that they have given so much to us, isn’t this a time to at least consider their feelings and maybe even consult with them before doing anything that you know could potentially cause them hurt and shame?

  • Todd

    April 28th, 2014 at 3:47 AM

    Parents from so many different cultures place too much pressure and stress on their children. When did it become that the child has to achieve this and do that before we are proud of them? My kids might make dumb mistakes from time to time but they will never dishonor me no matter what they do, and I will always stick by them. That to me is what the job of a parent really is.

  • haven t

    April 29th, 2014 at 3:43 AM

    If you are ever going to break free, then you have to be comfortable with your choices and then tell everyone else to go take a flying leap if they aren’t happy with those choices. You only need to make one person happy with your choices, and that person is you.

  • Gerald

    April 30th, 2014 at 7:37 AM

    I have to tell you that I have lived a very long time knowing that I was never going to meet the expectations of my family. That is just the way that it is. It is not fun to live like this but I think that there are still a lot of us who want to please our parents no matter how old any of us get.

  • Jan

    May 19th, 2022 at 5:46 PM

    Adult children today are seeing therapists where they discover the cause of the 40 yr old stress and anxiety is that aha they had a toxic mother. Best practices is to cut that negative person out of your life. It’s easy, rids the child of an irritating mother, and leaves that mother a lifetime of grief. Shame, broken hearted, excruciating pain. Why does this feel fair. I’ve been excluded for getting late stage bipolar. My behavior was bizarre. Finally hospitalized. Got better on meds. Returned to life ,worked. But I was still cut off, even lost contact with grandchildren. Do they know this hurts me? Have to be incapacitated to not. I have sat alone 15 years. Never invited to any holiday or family activity. This is devasting destructive unkind. How bad and how long. They want to be happy, and destroyed me.

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