Why It’s Good to Hate Your Kids

Unhappy Mother Dressed For Work Holding Baby In BedroomMany years ago, before I had children, I worked with a parent who confided that she would sometimes get so frustrated with her baby that she fantasized about throwing him out the window. I was horrified to hear this, and thought there was something really troubled about this parent—that is, until I had my own (colicky) baby and began to have similar fantasies.

Just to be clear, neither this parent nor I was going to hurt anyone. There is a world of difference between fantasizing and acting. But our feelings of frustration and hate were very real and powerful. And we are not alone. Having had the pleasure of both participating in and leading several parenting support groups over the years, I can tell you that many parents have feelings of hate or other strongly negative feelings toward their kids at one time or another.

So, if hating our children is so ubiquitous, why isn’t it more openly acknowledged?

We have all heard (ad nauseam) about the positive feelings we are supposed to cultivate in ourselves and express toward our children, feelings such as patience, acceptance, unconditional love, pride, etc. Rarely, though, do we hear about the validity of feeling hate or other strongly negative feelings toward our children.

Fortunately, this has shifted somewhat in the past decade or so. The proliferation of parent support groups where the expression of negative feelings is accepted and supported, and the publication of books such as the satirical parenting guides Sh*tty Mom: The Parenting Guide for the Rest of Us by Laurie Kilmartin, et al., Toddlers Are A**holes: It’s not Your Fault by Bunmi Laditan, and the faux children’s book Go the F**k to Sleep by Adam Mansbach and Ricardo Cortes, have helped normalize parents’ negative feelings. Despite these advances, however, a culture of secrecy and shame around hating our kids persists.

In order to understand why this is, it might be helpful to first look at the question of why we hate our kids.

To some extent, it’s just common sense: spending hours upon hours, days upon days, years upon years taking care of someone who is dependent on you, but often demanding and resentful of you, naturally breeds some negative feelings.

For a more in-depth look at parental hate, Donald Winnicott (a psychoanalyst and coiner of the phrase “the good enough mother”) explained it best when he gave the following reasons (among others) as to why a mother might hate her baby (1975; p. 201).

  • The baby is a danger to her in pregnancy and in birth.
  • The baby is an interference with her private life.
  • The baby hurts her nipples even by suckling, bites her, and tries to hurt her in other ways.
  • The baby can be ruthless, treats her like scum, an unpaid servant, a slave.
  • The baby at first must dominate, life must unfold at the baby’s rate, and all this needs the mother’s continuous and detailed study.
  • After an awful morning with her baby, when the mother goes out with him/her, s/he smiles at a stranger who says: “Isn’t s/he sweet?”

And yet, Winnicott goes on, for all the hate the mother may feel toward her baby, she must learn to tolerate this feeling without acting on it or expressing it in its raw, rageful form (p. 202). In short, mothers—and I would add fathers, too—must contain their feelings of rage. Perhaps it is this need for containment and the challenges this task poses that explains why parental hate is still somewhat taboo.

But what does it even mean to contain one’s negative feelings toward one’s child? And why is it so important?

I would argue that containment is achieved when parents are able to accept and integrate into their emotional landscape, at least to some extent, their negative feelings toward their children. Generally, when we fail to accept our negative feelings toward our children, we act in one of two ways: we become rageful or we withdraw emotionally, either of which can be problematic.

When we rage at our children, we give them the message that we are not in control of our negative feelings, that negative feelings are scary and bad, and that any such feelings they have should be expressed in a similar way, or hidden away because they are too scary.

Alternatively, when we cut ourselves off from our negative feelings or hide them away such that we don’t have access to and don’t express them to our children, our children get the message that negative feelings are unacceptable and wrong and that when they feel and/or express negative feelings, they are bad for doing so. Having negative feelings becomes a scary, lonely, and powerless experience.

So, if we aren’t supposed to act on or hide our hateful feelings toward our kids, what the heck do we do with them?

As I suggested above, the first step is to accept them, to not feel ashamed of them, to understand that they are valid. In this way, we come to integrate these feelings into the rest of who we are and what we feel. In practice, this might mean sharing our feelings with other parents, complaining about or talking trash about our kids to others, or maybe speaking with a counselor or therapist—release! Often, this is enough for us to feel sane and in control and to contain our negative feelings in a way our child needs.

Sometimes, though, it is not enough for us to calmly hold our negative feelings without expressing them. Sometimes our children need to feel our hate or negative feelings toward them—not necessarily in their raw form, but in a controlled way.

Why is this? Why do our children ever need to experience our hate toward them?

How Psychoanalysis Can Inform Parenting

Once again, I believe Winnicott explained it best when he stated (1975): “It seems doubtful whether a human child as he develops is capable of tolerating the full extent of his own hate in a sentimental environment. He needs hate to hate.” (p. 202)

Hyman Spotnitz, founder of modern psychoanalysis, a branch of psychoanalysis, elaborated on Winnicott’s thesis when he wrote about the relationship between the therapist and the person in therapy. In psychoanalysis, it is believed that the relationship between the person in therapy and the therapist inherently evokes feelings from the former’s past (and sometimes the therapist’s, too), particularly with regards to the relationship to his or her parents. When evoked in the context of the psychoanalytic relationship, certain powerful feelings can arise in the person toward the therapist and the therapist towards the person in therapy, including feelings of hate.

Although he cautioned against expressing all of one’s feelings toward the people one works with in therapy, Spotnitz warned against the therapist always hiding his negative feelings (2004). He wrote, “To allot too little hate to a patient who needs to learn to experience and sustain it comfortably is unjust. To give him too little feeling because the analyst has too much of it is a technical error. The patient is entitled to whatever feeling—positive or negative—he needs …” (p. 159)

Spotnitz further writes (2004) that the therapist needs to express his hatred in order to help the person in therapy experience and sustain his or her own negative feelings. In this way, the therapist helps the person feel less alone with his or her hate, feel that the therapist is more like him/her, with a more equitable balance of goodness and badness (that is, the person is not all bad for his or her negative feelings, and the therapist not all good for not expressing his/hers).

Spotnitz also suggests (2004) that the sharing of the therapist’s hate can reassure the person in therapy of his or her impact on the therapist, giving the person a sense of control and power. Furthermore, when the therapist expresses negative feelings to the person, the person can see that the therapist’s verbal expression does not necessarily lead to action, the therapist thereby modeling for the person the importance of putting feelings into words rather than acting out.

While I do not advocate being therapists to our children (in fact, I strongly caution against it), I would argue that many of the beliefs of psychoanalysis more generally, and modern psychoanalysis specifically, very much apply to parenting. We need to try to accept and integrate our feelings of hate and other negative feelings toward our children so that we can contain them and, when appropriate, choose to express them to our children in a controlled fashion. In this way, our children can see that we have powerful, negative feelings, too, and that they are not alone with their scary, hateful feelings and are not bad for having them. We let our children know that despite how powerless they feel at times, they do have some power in being able to affect us and stir up powerful feelings in us. We help our children accept and integrate their own hate, so that it becomes one of many feelings they can experience and express, not one that is split off and acted out because of fear or shame.

In short, sometimes our hate can be helpful to our kids.

So, what does “helpful hate” look like in practice?

How Hate Can Be Helpful

To illustrate, I recount a situation with a parent, whom I shall call Angela, who was a member of one of my parenting groups.

Angela was a parent of two—a 6-year-old girl, whom I will call Josephine, and a 3-year-old boy whom I will call Sam. Josephine had been a very easy baby and toddler; she had a calm temperament and was well-behaved. Angela felt confident and competent in her parenting of Josephine.

It was therefore a bit of a surprise and disappointment to Angela when Sam was born and turned out to be a very difficult baby and toddler. Much more physically developed than verbal, Sam would get frustrated when he didn’t get his way and couldn’t express himself, and would often hit Angela, quite hard, to express his frustration. Angela would become enraged and scream at Sam when he hit her. Sam, in turn, became very scared and would start sobbing inconsolably, at which point Angela would feel so guilty that she would apologize profusely and try to comfort Sam, to no avail. Unfortunately, this became a cycle, with Angela and Sam clearly both very upset about what was happening between them, but with the hitting and screaming continuing.

As parents, when we learn how to do these things, we become more comfortable with who we are and what we feel, and can therefore be more in control and more deliberate in our parenting choices. And all this helps us be the best parents we can be, no matter what we are feeling toward our children.

When Angela spoke in the parenting group about this dynamic, she expressed deep shame about her rage and her screaming and the cycle in which she and Sam were engaged. She so desperately wanted to be in control and to figure out a way to break the cycle.

After several weeks of discussing her predicament, one of the other members of the group blurted out, “Sam’s a terror! Of course you want to scream at him! It’s a miracle you don’t hit him back!” Angela looked stunned, but then burst out laughing, as did the rest of the group.

It seemed that something had been liberated in Angela. She had finally been given permission to accept her strongly negative feelings toward Sam. Little by little, Angela was able to discuss and accept her more negative feelings—her disappointment that Sam wasn’t easier like his sister, her anger at Sam for leading her to feel like an inadequate parent, and much more.

Over time, these feelings stopped being so scary and shameful to Angela. As Angela became more accepting of her negative feelings, her rage began to dissipate, and when Sam hit her, she often felt “simply” angry rather than enraged. Angela began to feel more in control of her feelings and more able to focus on what to do with Sam in a less reactive, guilty way.

Over time, Angela’s yelling at Sam began to decrease. Rather, when Sam hit her, Angela would firmly and somewhat angrily tell Sam to stop, that she knew he was mad but that hitting was not OK, that if he was mad, he could yell “No!” or “I’m mad!” She would then send Sam to his room for a time-out.

It seemed to have the desired effect. Over time, Sam’s hitting greatly decreased and his use of the words “no!” and “mad!” greatly increased. It would seem that, for both Sam and Angela, negative feelings had become more acceptable, more integrated parts of who they were and how they interacted with each other.

Although it is impossible to know what Sam’s subjective experience of all this was or even to be sure what aspect of Angela’s approach was effective, I would speculate that because of the changes in Angela’s feelings and actions, she was able to accomplish at least some of the following:

  • Help Sam feel that his negative feelings had an impact on Angela but were not bad or overwhelming.
  • Set the limit, “Hitting is not OK; you need to go to your room,” so that Sam felt his anger was being contained, which helped him feel safe.
  • Give Sam alternative forms of expression, i.e. words, to teach Sam how to express his strong feelings rather than act out on them.

Of course, there are times when this type of approach doesn’t work for a variety of reasons. Hey, nothing works all the time in parenting. We are human; we lose control; our kids lose control. And certainly, many parents are perfectly capable of handling their hatred and other negative feelings without the help of psychoanalysis.

Nonetheless, what I think is unique about psychoanalysis and what it can contribute to parenting is its ability to help people learn about and accept all their feelings, both positive and negative, and to show people what to do with their feelings (contain, express, etc.), particularly the more difficult ones such as hate.

As parents, when we learn how to do these things, we become more comfortable with who we are and what we feel, and can therefore be more in control and more deliberate in our parenting choices. And all this helps us be the best parents we can be, no matter what we are feeling toward our children.

References:

  1. Kilmartin, L., Moline, K., Ybarbo, A., & Zoellner, Mary Ann. (2012). Sh*tty Mom: The Parenting Guide for the Rest of Us. Harry Abrams.
  2. Latidan, B. (2015). Toddlers Are A**holes: It’s not Your Fault. Workman Publishing Company.
  3. Mansbach, A., & Cortes, R. (2011). Go the F**k to Sleep. Akashic Books.
  4. Spotnitz, H. (2004). Modern Psychoanalysis of the Schizophrenic Patient. YBK Publishers.
  5. Winnicott, D.W. (1975). Hate in the Countertransference. Through Pediatrics to Psychoanalysis, pp. 194-203. New York: Basic Books.

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  • Tina

    Tina

    October 21st, 2015 at 11:52 AM

    It could be that this is like with any other frustration or hurt- if you hold it in for too long then eventually it is going to come out and will probably be even worse than it would have been if you had simply just expressed it the first time that you felt it.

  • AlanK

    AlanK

    October 21st, 2015 at 4:01 PM

    Hate your kids? Is this supposed to be some kind of a joke?

  • kdt1974

    kdt1974

    October 21st, 2015 at 7:03 PM

    This is real talk! I have two beautiful girls and no one had better touch or harm them…but then again there are those days….

  • Ruth Wyatt, LCSW

    Ruth Wyatt, LCSW

    October 22nd, 2015 at 3:41 AM

    Dear Tina: I think you hit the nail on its head!!

  • Natalie

    Natalie

    October 22nd, 2015 at 7:44 AM

    Come on, we all know that there are times that you would like to just flip your kid off every time that they turn their backs! This is normal, I think, especially from people who stay home with their kids and never feel like they have a free moment to themselves. It is hard to always be around your kids, it just is, and I think that it is only natural to want a little free time to yourself and to express that from time to time. You just always have to know where to draw the line.

  • Michelle

    Michelle

    October 22nd, 2015 at 10:31 AM

    This is an article which should be shared among multiple parenting and therapy groups. The author’s ability to normalize parental aggression and help generate a self empathic response is, not only unique, but incisive and useful to struggling parents…and therapists alike. I would recommend this piece to anyone who is struggling with all types of interpersonal relationships.

  • Lois

    Lois

    October 22nd, 2015 at 10:36 AM

    A very interesting perspective. I think a parent is a parent, a caregiver is a caregiver, a pet owner is a pet owner, etc… all responsible, compassionate, accountable to that which is under their charge and care. In every instance of caring for those who are dependent on that care, the person in charge “must” be able to take care of themselves first… you know, like on an airplane that is experiencing horrific turbulence or worse and the oxygen masks drop from the ceiling. You are asked, as a responsible, capable adult/traveler to adjust the mask to your own face and then your children, or anyone near who may not be able. Of course, we’re human and sometimes failure (as a result of sheer exhaustion, lack of skills/tools, life in general) is the outcome. It seems to me that the “hate” you refer to is disappointment, frustration, exasperation, etc, centered in the person who delivers it, not in the innocent bystander, be it a child, elderly feeble dependent adult, an animal, etc. Human development is what we experience from zygote to the last breath of life and it’s complicated. Raising children is complicated and developmental for both child and parent but I don’t think hate was never part of my experience or my Mom’s. Embrace your hate if you will but don’t use your child as a vehicle for understanding that emotion and call it a necessary part of childhood. In my humble opinion there is enough hate in the world already. Thanks.

  • ada

    ada

    October 22nd, 2015 at 12:31 PM

    Sure there will be those days when they are not your favorite people in the world but that will never change the fact that they are your children and you love them more fiercely and protectively than anyone else ever could.

  • Len

    Len

    October 22nd, 2015 at 5:42 PM

    We all hate someone practically every day.

    No big deal, we usually get over it

  • angel

    angel

    October 23rd, 2015 at 8:11 AM

    This is a little person who has totally changed your life. Most of us think for the better but there are those who only see the bad things about it. So yeah there can be some resentment and animosity there.

  • blake

    blake

    October 24th, 2015 at 6:42 AM

    So I think that hate is a pretty strong word here. I am not sure that there are actually that many people who are parents who hate their young children. I know that there are probably plenty of adult parent child relationships that are not all that great and would take years of therapy to sort through and repair but with your young children I think that it is more about you still remember what life was like before they came into your life and in some ways you sort of mourn that loss of freedom that you may have once had.

  • Casey

    Casey

    August 5th, 2018 at 10:31 AM

    I think parents who claim they never feel hatred toward their kids either don’t spend enough time with them, or somehow ended up with magical children that never do much wrong. I will admit, I have one of those magical children who just never sets me off. I never feel that upset with him, to the point that it scares me a little. I hope this isn’t going to mean he will be a pushover as an adult and get treated badly because he doesn’t stand his ground. So, there might be a major downside to him being constantly agreeable.
    However, I have another kid with ASD and ADHD who I do reach that point of hatred with, fairly regularly. She destroys property chronically, she talks back chronically, she throws epic fits daily, and she “fakes” it (it is actually a coping technique so I’m not just being mean saying that) around others to the point where they think she is just the sweetest thing. There are times where just the financial toll this child creates makes me start to hate her. Or, the many, many times she has cost us the ability to have a good time or for me to see friends because she can cry for 2 hours straight (now that crying is destroying property because she’s older). I can’t take her places or have to leave, and I resent her for that.
    But, I can feel all these things and still be a good mother to her. It really helps to connect to other parents that get your struggles. It does help to be able to admit to another mom (and have her say the same about her kids) that you hate your kid this week. That you wish you could just send her off to someone else and forget the whole thing. Admitting those really dark, ugly thoughts that of course you’d never really do.
    I watched my parents bottle that stuff up and actually say these horrible things to my brother growing up. He suffered very major emotional damage because of it. I wish they had accepted and dealt with their feelings away from him, but they didn’t. I try to do better. I am ok with these feelings existing. I think I wouldn’t be human if I didn’t feel this way at times to my extraordinarily hard child. I can even admit that sometimes I really do love her brother more. But, then I come back to her and I can manage my anger. Show her just enough for her to realize that she does things that do really hurt others, but then remind her that even after she upsets me, I’m going to work to forgive her, allow her to make amends, and love her even so because I am always going to be on her team. I think it is important for kids to witness this cycle, too.

  • verna

    verna

    October 24th, 2015 at 1:22 PM

    but isn’t it funny how most of us would turn on a dime if it was someone else saying something about our kids? like we can pick on them but no one else better even think about it!

  • Skeet

    Skeet

    October 26th, 2015 at 7:09 AM

    There is nothing that I wouldn’t do to help my kids, but like any parent of course I have had those days when I want to bite and kick and scream just from sheer frustration. But I am a grown up. Kids don’t know how to manage all of those feelings, but I am an adult, I have to learn to keep those feelings in check. Go outside and count to 10, scream, whatever I need to do to keep from taking it out on the kids.

  • Rowe

    Rowe

    October 27th, 2015 at 8:43 AM

    I don’t think that this should be a title of why it is ok to hate your kids; but instead it should be more like why it is ok to sometimes admit that this is what you think that you are feeling. Why you shouldn’t ignore those feelings that you are probably having/.

  • melissa d

    melissa d

    October 28th, 2015 at 10:11 AM

    There simply comes a [point where you want to be remembered for being more than just so and so’s mom, so and so’s wife, you want people to remember who you are without those labels and there is something about becoming a wife and mother that seems to take a lot of that away from women.

  • Catfree

    Catfree

    February 1st, 2016 at 1:46 AM

    I needed this article. Now I appreciate the expression through communication of ‘I love you, however I hate your behavior”. I would have liked more discussion around the problems around the child’s transition from adolescent to teenager. I have always adored my kids and now realize I probably did too much doting on them that now that they need to be taking on more responsibility, there ineptitude to do so frustrated me to know end. Am I the only one hear who gets tired of sounding like a broken record when communicating to my kids? It’s pretty darn frustrating to seemingly be ignored by my children when I do so much for them and try to plan for their future success.

    Again, thank you for the insight this article gave me. Especially considering there doesn’t appear to be much information on this topic.

  • KJH

    KJH

    December 27th, 2016 at 5:23 AM

    I think hate is the wrong word. I don’t think parents hate their kids, I think they get severely annoyed with them. Kids or anyone for that matter can get on your last nerve but that’s not hate. You can love someone deeply but still get very, very annoyed with them regardless of their age.

  • 444

    444

    May 28th, 2017 at 4:06 AM

    Major click bait title, but hey hopefully works to attract some readers over the years who need to read the actual message contained. My mother had me for all the wrong reasons, was not prepared at all to be a mother and hated me so much from birth that she sometimes filled being abusive and inappropriate without even considering how demented it was. She was a psychological and emotional terrorist to me from infancy and still to this day if I don’t set the strongest boundaries in the world. However, part of her dysfunctions have also always included a severe need to have everyone think she is a perfectly good person, including mother, who never does anything wrong. If one were to search online for the “Narcissist’s Prayer” that is basically my mother in a nutshell. This has led over the years to so much gaslighting, smear campaigning and other forms of lies and manipulations, culminating in two different realities: secret psychopath mother vs public perfect mother. Some acceptance and processing of feelings could have made both of our lives much less nightmarish, I am sure.

  • Ruth Wyatt

    Ruth Wyatt

    May 28th, 2017 at 8:46 AM

    Thanks so much for sharing your perspective and experience. You are really highlighting the different types of “hate” a parent can feel towards their children – the “I love you but sometimes you drive me crazy” type of hate that we all feel at times and the pathological, narcissistic “I am a bottomless pit of need and loathing and I will take it out on you!” kind of hate. It is a miracle that you survived your toxic upbringing and are able to protect yourself from your mother. You must be a very resilient and determined person!

  • Shane

    Shane

    June 17th, 2018 at 3:38 PM

    I totally understand these types of feelings. My 5 year old girl has regressional behavior and needs a constant stream of attention. She grew up completely independent and excited about life. She was a great human being! Literally, one day a switch was flicked and she woke up a completely different person. I would say maybe is was because mom was pregnant but she does also have some aspergers tendencies. Hiding your negative feelings is SO DAMN hard in a scenario such as this like when your 5 year old forgets how to use the bathroom and you check on her in the shower and she is throwing her poop outside of the shower and onto the carpet in front of the toilet… or when she holds in her pee until she is about to burst on a daily basis and pees all around the toilet but not in it and find her using your shower towel to clean it all up… or when she knows your are trying to direct her in a helpful fashion, even play time, but chooses not to listen to you and talks over you as if you were never saying anything…. or when you decide to take the family out to dinner and do something nice to unwind but when her order comes she stares at her food playing with her lips in an anxious bout of indecisiveness, and when you decide to instead take the food home she freaks out in a tantrum that you never fed her like she is a baby…. or when you have done stuff as a family all day and the moment you finally get home to relax she incessantly talks about how she wants to go somewhere like to grandmas or on a walk just because she doesn’t want to be home… etc.. etc…

    This is all new behavior and is very difficult adjusting to it since she used to be so independent and all of a sudden is now insatiable. Honestly it drives my wife and I nuts and exhausts us to the point where we don’t even WANT to do anything with her. We discuss from time to time how we don’t even enjoy her company. It is extremely sad and unnerving because she is a great kid and super sweet when she is being her ‘normal’ self. We have had many moments where we put her to bed only to break down and cry because we feel like we went wrong somewhere, like we are terrible parents for not having a steel fortitude in dealing with a situation like this. Grandma has even broken down and expressed her sadness and disheartened feelings with us over how she has changed. We even took her in to get evaluated at a specialty clinic who diagnoses autistic behaviors in children, and they expressed that since our 5 year old only recently started acting like this and had hit ALL of her milestones early and on time that this behavior is temporary and reactionary, most likely an onset from stress in her environment, such as a baby who just arrived 2 weeks ago, actually.

    I will say, though, that since our other daughter has arrived our 5 year old has tremendously turned over a new leaf with her eating habits… finally! She will eat most of her meals now, if not all. It did seem like her acclimation to the new baby wasn’t as bad as she thought it might be, or something, and so her behavior has improved a little but it still errs on the side of exhaustion, especially for my wife. She really tests my wife and I fear that when I go back to work tomorrow my 5 year old will make things at home difficult, if not impossible, for my wife to do anything.

    If anyone has any insight or relative experiences please share as we have a tendency of being at our wits ends in dealing with our child. Just so you know, positive reinforcement goes by unnoticed like it means nothing to her. We could throw her a celebration for peeing in the toilet but it wouldn’t matter. It almost seems as though the negative attention is what she strives for. It makes it difficult to feel normal and enthusiastic about life or anything in general. It really takes a toll on all of us, even my oldest daughter, who comes over every other weekend. They seem to gravitate to one another more than anyone else but my 5 year old still has a tendency to spread her thin too. It just sucks… all around. I wish this would go back to normal.

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