Help! What If My Therapist Goes on Maternity Leave Again?
Dear Left in Limbo,
This is a gut-wrenching position you find yourself in. On the one hand, you’ve done some great work with this therapist and built a strong relationship with her; on the other hand, the work seems to have stalled because you are preoccupied with her potential departure. Should you stay or should you go?
It sounds like the therapeutic relationship is actually bringing out some of the relational issues you are working to address—fear of abandonment, distrust, and generally feeling unsafe. While it is deeply uncomfortable, and I in no way wish to minimize that, this can be a powerful way to work through these issues. The therapeutic relationship is different from any other relationship in large part because it is designed to serve the needs of one person—the person who sought therapy. You can raise the issues you are having in the relationship and deal with how they are affecting you, how they are connected to the past, how they are connected to other relationships in your life, and perhaps most importantly, how to heal from them. You do not need to be concerned with how your therapist is affected by this. If necessary, she can take care of herself through supervision and her own therapy. This relationship is 100% about you and your healing and growth.
It seems like you are having a very difficult time engaging in this process because of the deep-seated fear you have of her taking another extended leave. Presumably, if she were to go on another maternity leave, there would be a period of time for the two of you to work on preparing for this. Maybe you could even have a joint session with your therapist and the therapist who would cover for her during the leave, so that you three could talk about where you are in treatment, how you could best be supported during the leave, and what could be worked on. While it would not be easy, this sort of process could really contribute to your healing.
Finally, while your therapist has acknowledged that she may not be the safest therapist for you due to potential maternity leaves, it seems important to acknowledge that there are no guarantees in therapy. There is no therapist on the planet who can promise, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that he or she will be able to be there for you from the start of your work until you reach resolution. Illness, death, relocation, job change, and other issues can come up for anyone, including therapists, at any time. This is a frightening and painful truth about life, and this therapeutic relationship just might help you come to terms with that. I suspect that would be deeply liberating for you.
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OllyJuly 4th, 2014 at 12:28 PM
Do you think that you would be okay if she would at least help you start reaching out to others with whom you could potentially work if or when she goes on leave? It may or may not happen but it would be nice to know that there is someone that you can rely on to fall back on if this becomes the reality of your relationship.
bennettJuly 6th, 2014 at 5:26 AM
I sort of feel your pain but it also seems that you would be asking someone to put their own life on hold for yours and that isn’t the right thing to do either. I understand that this is a difficult situation for you, but perhaps you should trust that what is meant to be will be and continue on with your therapy until you actually get to the point of having to make a decision like this. Trying to address things that have not even come up yet, that’s not the healthy way to go about this for you I think. I would just keep progressing as you have been, focus on getting better, and cross any other bridges when you get there.
ClaraJuly 7th, 2014 at 1:27 PM
Is this person at all concerned that you could be depending on her too much?
LEIGHJuly 8th, 2014 at 4:29 PM
Nothing in life is ever guarantedd. We all might walk out of the house today not knowing that it could be our last. You need to work with someone who can somehow begin preparing you for the reality that there will always be people going in and out of your life and that has to be okay. There will be others there to care for you, so try to find that balance of being with the right person but not feeling like the world will cave in if they are no longer a part of your life. You know you are stronger than that and with work you can do this!
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