Recovering from Infidelity: Why Does Forgiveness Feel So Dangerous?

Adult with short dark hair and beard sits on bench, hands steepled against face, looking downI believe infidelity is one of the most difficult challenges a couple can experience and attempt to recover from. In my work with people who have experienced infidelity—who may still be reeling from its effects—I’ve noticed some similarities between their varied experiences. While some come to me days after discovery and others may wait decades, many of those seeking help share one common experience, regardless of the amount of time that has passed: the pressure to forgive.

While many partners who have been unfaithful and want to salvage the relationship seek to be forgiven, sometimes almost immediately, many partners who have been betrayed are not ready to forgive until they are sure their partner understands the pain the act has caused.

Understanding Infidelity’s Impact

Infidelity can come in many forms, and it is not always characterized by a sexual relationship. Often infidelity occurs in the form of a new relationship outside the primary relationship. In some instances infidelity may be undetectable to all involved. Typically, an affair suggests that an individual was unfaithful over a period of time with an affair partner was an active, knowing participant. To some, infidelity also includes secret thoughts about a person other than a partner or the development of an emotional connection outside the primary relationship. A partner can also be unfaithful by hiding income or debt.

In most cases, infidelity is evidenced by:

  1. Guilt over the crossing of relationship boundaries, even if one partner is not aware of what happened.
  2. Acts or thoughts kept secret by one partner because they know the other partner would not approve
  3. A feeling of betrayal when the acts or thoughts are discovered or revealed.

People who have been unfaithful may not be aware they have crossed the line into infidelity. They may also not have had the intention of harming their partner. In the aftermath of unfaithfulness, however, they often discover the pain experienced by the other person goes deeper than they could have imagined.

A betrayed partner may come to find their world view, sense of safety, and very identity has been shaken. Many people I treat experience both physical and emotional symptoms, such as intrusive thoughts that creep in over the course of their day, difficulty sleeping or eating, or depression symptoms, among others. These effects, and the pain experienced as a result, may heal in time. But time does not automatically heal the wounds of infidelity; therefore, there is not a specific timeline for forgiveness. Couples who want to recover from the trauma of infidelity generally find it necessary to invest significant time and effort into rebuilding the relationship.

What Forgiveness Can Signify—and What It Doesn’t

After infidelity comes to light, the person who was unfaithful may hope to be forgiven right away. While forgiveness may be a necessary part of infidelity recovery, it generally does not occur at the beginning of the recovery process. In my experience, forgiveness more often comes near the end of the process.  To the partner who was betrayed, forgiveness often means the end of the journey. Why? Because forgiveness can feel dangerous.

Forgiveness can feel dangerous because, to some, it may indicate certain beliefs they may not necessarily support. Let’s consider a few of those.

1. I can never feel hurt or upset again.

When an affair is discovered, couples who are trying to reconcile may fall into opposite roles. The partner who was betrayed is the “good” partner while the partner who was unfaithful is the “bad” one. They remain in these roles until the “good” partner sees the “bad” partner begin to understand the hurt they experienced as a result of the “bad” partner’s actions.

Hurt stemming from a breach of trust such as infidelity may cause emotions and symptoms that affect activities of daily life. In this case, the betrayed partner may feel it’s better to forgive for the good of the relationship, but that doing so will remove the pain from the experience. By forgiving, they might feel, they can never try to heal from the pain or learn what is needed to prevent it from happening again.

But forgiveness does not wipe away or invalidate the pain or trauma resulting from an act of infidelity, nor does it indicate the person who was betrayed no longer experiences those emotions.

2. I am excusing or accepting your behavior.

Many partners I’ve worked with struggle with the idea that forgiving infidelity does not mean the behavior is acceptable. Some equate it to raising children: if there are no consequences to deter behavior, then the behavior is excused. Partners who have been betrayed may feel by forgiving, they are offering the partner who was unfaithful a “get out of jail free” card.

After infidelity, most couples struggle to find a way to ease the pain, and forgiveness may seem like a less-painful way out. Unfortunately, when a partner who has been betrayed is rushed to forgive, increased pain and distance is often the result.

But both partners need to work to find a way to separate the pain of the breach from the freedom of forgiveness. The reality is, forgiveness is for the forgiver. It can help to think of forgiveness as taking the weight of your own hurt and pain and tossing it into the ocean. By forgiving, you are saying “I do not want to carry this burden of pain any longer.” A person can still experience hurt as a result of a behavior but choose to forgive—because they want to begin to heal.

3. Now I have to want to restore the relationship.

A partner who has been unfaithful may believe once they are forgiven, the relationship will return to the way it was or be automatically repaired. But this may not be the case. Even when a person is able to forgive, they may still not be ready to repair the relationship, at that time or at any time.

Restoration is not always the goal of infidelity recovery, and infidelity recovery does not have to involve both partners. Sometimes one or both partners may choose to heal alone. Forgiving a partner who was unfaithful may, to some, mean moving on from the relationship. Some partners who were unfaithful may similarly choose to move on from the relationship.

I teach the people I work with that there are levels to recovery.

  • The first level, forgiveness, involves releasing the self from the pain of this action. People may struggle to heal when they are consumed by pain.
  • The next level is reconciliation. This level is different for everyone. Many couples may find this to be the most comfortable goal of counseling, as they want to build something new together out of the rubble of their old relationship. Realizing the old relationship was broken, they choose to work to create a new one that incorporates their prior experience. This can be a cautious approach, as the partner who experienced betrayal may continue to scan the relationship for any signs of danger well into the healing process.
  • The highest level of forgiveness is restoration. This is a level many couples aspire to, as it generally indicates the relationship is restored to its previous standing.

In most cases the first level is sufficient for individuals who choose to recover on their own. Reconciliation is necessary to rebuild trust, but it is important to remember forgiveness does not automatically mean reconciliation will follow.

4. Now I must be ready to trust completely.

I’ve heard partners who have been unfaithful say, “If you forgive me, then you have to trust me.” I work diligently to teach them forgiveness and trust are two separate events. Forgiveness can mean a partner wants to trust again at some point, but it may not yet be possible. Forgiveness helps the person forgiving find release from pain, while trust can allow the person who was forgiven to find release from guilt. The act of rebuilding trust also requires the participation of both partners.

After infidelity, most couples struggle to find a way to ease the pain, and forgiveness may seem like a less-painful way out. Unfortunately, when a partner who has been betrayed is rushed to forgive, increased pain and distance is often the result. While in some cases, forgiveness may not be possible, in other cases being unable to forgive may prolong pain.

Finding the place where forgiveness is beneficial can be a delicate process, and patience, with both the self and with one’s partner, is more likely to aid recovery than forcing the process. No recovery has a timeline or a shortcut. Recovering is hard work, whether partners choose to end a relationship or attempt to rebuild it. In either case, recovering from infidelity can present an opportunity for both partners to find strength and grow, and couples counseling can be a helpful step in this process.

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  • roland

    October 19th, 2017 at 2:57 PM

    It feels so dangerous because you are really having to put yourself out there and your whole being on the line to forgive and forget when someone betrays you this way. You don’t want to feel that way, but God, that pain is unspeakable and you never want to have to go through all of that again. The thought is always there of what if they do it to you all over again? Then you will feel like a fool, almost complicit in that you allowed it to happen to you again.

  • Percy

    October 20th, 2017 at 7:46 AM

    There is a vulnerability there that can make anyone feel like they cannot trust someone again.

  • SharonW

    October 21st, 2017 at 7:58 AM

    When I found out that my husband had been running around on me, I was totally devastated. I had no idea that the marriage had gotten to a point where he was actually seeking solace from another woman. He begged me to forgive him and take him back, and we even went to couples counseling to try to work through it but for me it just felt like no matter what the trust would always be gone and I couldn’t forget about the hurt that he had caused to me and the family. I decided that divorce was the best option for me, that it wouldn’t be fair to either of us for me to continue going through the motions but never really feeling that he and I would make a good marriage together again. I did not have the heart to stay, and even though it hurt, I had to somehw find the heart to just let him go and move on.

  • Nellie

    October 23rd, 2017 at 10:21 AM

    I admit that I cheated looking for something that wasn’t there in my current relationship… but it took messing up pretty badly to see that ultimately I was unhappy with ME, and until I was ready to fix myself, nothing would improve or change really .

  • SAGE

    October 24th, 2017 at 3:31 PM

    You feel like the cheater will then consider that you are a pushover and that they can now get away with anything. Then you feel like you are just letting yourself down over and over again by letting them constantly run all over you.

  • cassidy

    October 27th, 2017 at 11:39 AM

    There will always be some element of danger when you turn loose of things and allow yourself to be vulnerable. The more invested that you are in a relationship then naturally the bigger the likelihood that you can eventually get hurt. It isn’t a lot of fun to admit that but that is always something that just goes with the territory of trusting another person and loving them. But when you have found the right person I think that you lose some of that fear because you know that you don’t need it anymore to protect yourself from it.

  • Rayne

    October 28th, 2017 at 10:23 AM

    All I can say though is that the tenability or the obstinance that prevents you from forgiving and moving on feels even worse.

  • Ms. Ann

    August 26th, 2019 at 9:03 AM

    I feel so broken…

  • Kristine

    November 4th, 2019 at 5:57 AM

    I have been cheated on so many times yet I always try to be the best person I can be. My husband was texting some woman telling her he loved her and wanted pics and was sending him pics. i found out yesterday and it devistated me. I’m 48 he is 50 and said it’s because he wants a baby. I’ve been sterile since I was 26 due to serious health issues. Not sure what to do

  • Mary L

    April 30th, 2020 at 10:49 AM

    So many people have been destroyed by their spouses stupid selfish actions.

  • Dorothy

    July 19th, 2021 at 5:27 PM

    My husband was in a recovery group and I never questioned his daily meetings, his needs to take others to various ‘events’ and I was the ‘cool wife’ that didn’t butt in to what he called his “treatments for his disease” . Approx. once a year I was invited to accompany him on someone else’s anniversary. He put down ‘the bottle’ and never took it up again, from day 1 for over 35 years. We had a business out in the country and a large family, farm animals, several employees, and he was free to go, usually with a delivery or a pickup to handle. We never went out to dinner because they had introduced ‘liquor by the drink’ in our town and he seemed very uncomfortable the few times we went to any of the ‘restaurant-row’ places. To make this a bit shorter of a story, he had an entire social life which never included his sons or myself; 14 yrs. into the marriage I started asking questions about the philosophy, etc. and he would ‘clam up’. He totally ignored our sons’ drinking, and hid behind the ‘group’ philosophy: “You can’t change another person, only how you react to them”. These were our sons, not some stranger looking for free rides to meetings, whatever. Up to a certain age, the parents are.. Responsible.. to set boundaries, etc. We were never invited to his annual ‘anniversary party, unless by some other member. When the boys were little he took a couple of them a few times but they had to sit outside, unattended; I assumed he was being so honest and didn’t want them to hear any discussion of his ‘escapades’ in his youth. We had some marriage counseling and I found out that for 7 years he had been going ‘out to lunch’ in nice restaurants in town, with single women and others. Guess who was paying! I went to a few AlAnon meetings but it was VERY unavailable in our area at that time. Four or five women in the kitchen while 20 or 25 members gathered in another room of the house having a great time. The internet saved me when we went ‘online’ and I was able to interact with others and get answers to my questions, etc. He adamantly insisted that I was “crazy from menopause” so I had a full checkup and at the time was normal in my bloodwork, and bone-density. They prescribed a hormone replacement which I took for 1 month and was weepy, etc. and found it depressing. Right after that the news came out that H.R.therapy was a danger re:cancer. I had asked the dr. how long to take it and she said “for the rest of your life”….”even though you are in the normal range, if you go into menopause you may not realize it(???) and may lose bone density. Hubby had told me that ‘a woman at the meetings had a terrible time with mood-swings etc. from menopause, but by just taking one tiny pill, she was in a good mood. At that point I had asked him who my female-gyno-dr. was (in the meetings) that I had never met. When I told My dr. that I was over-emoting and not reacting proactively to my problems, she ordered me to “stop taking it, right away”. Soooo I started researching menopause, and ‘andropause’, the male equivalent …hubby was 4 yrs. older than me. One thing I learned that may help someone was that depression many times hits BOTH sexes at midlife. Your hormones fluctuate up & down & eventually settle……then is the time for a hormone-level test reading. Men classically experience depression as: I’m not happy and it’s YOUR FAULT. Women often experience depression as: I’m not happy and it’s MY FAULT….too fat, too old, too lethargic, grey hair, etc. etc.. I spent time researching mid-life-crisis/infidelity groups and learned the concept of the infatuation effect of an affair and the boost of ‘feel-good’ hormones that are released and are very similar to the effects of addiction. They (the endorphins, the happy high of an affair, whatever) last approximately two years, and many times the ‘wanderer’ is a broken person after that happens, and their life has become diminished ….ALSO.. the same release is achieved by a new career, new business. Many shared about seeing the ‘wanderer’ approx. 2 yrs. later, older men, that re-started with a younger wife, new babies, less money, abandoned careers, and aged very rapidly when the reality of life returned. (don’t forget, prostate issues, also). If I had it all to do over again (I’m 70 now!!!! ..but ‘still kickin’!) I would have gone with him to every meeting, etc. be-damned to ‘opinions’. Soo many times the wanderer comes back and sees his spouse is in GREAT shape, emotionally and physically, after getting off of the ’emotional roller coaster’ that they had put them on. Support groups that do not include the spouse are full of ‘institutionalized affection’ that disappears if you grow beyond them. A great feed of narcissistic ego-supply. Be strong! As the saying goes “If they l do it WITH you, they will do it TO you. (they being: the partner of a cheater).

  • Dorothy

    July 19th, 2021 at 5:58 PM

    I just wanted to clarify, to my first posting (I’m waiting for moderation): When I ended by saying: “If they will do it with you, they will do it TO you”. The ‘you I am referring to is the one that is carrying on an affair with your husband or wife. Ironically, sometimes the wandering spouse will cheat on his ‘new interest’, also.

  • Mar

    September 19th, 2021 at 9:20 PM

    I am a newly married man but I am far away from my wife, then on my lonely land I had a romantic touch with another woman but no penetration, to this I consider infidelity, now if I go back to my wife is it good to tell her that this is what happened.

  • Ali

    September 22nd, 2021 at 7:21 PM

    Yes it is infidelity. You have disrespected yourself and your wife. Only you can decide whether or not to tell her. Redeem yourself to NEVER doing anything shady and despicable again. Be a man of honor. Look at yourself and ask yourself if this is the man you want to be. Don’t be ruled by your little head. Treat your wife with respect.

  • Renee

    November 10th, 2021 at 1:50 PM

    I want to apologize to the wife of the man whom I went out with and sent inappropriate text messages for over 4 years. This is not a good example for my son or beautiful daughter. God does not approve of our actions. We both lied to his wife.

  • Cyrine

    April 6th, 2023 at 5:07 PM

    I have also committed adultery and my husband already forgave me but I feel like we aren’t the same anymore. Feelings have changed. My feelings have changed.

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