Sometimes, in the lighter side of dark moments, I have a fantasy of creating a sort of Bingo game just for people going through infertility. Instead of numbers, the boxes under B, I, N, G, and O would contain snippets of the not-very-helpful things people say when they hear you’re trying, and maybe failing, to have a baby: “Just relax.” That’s a perennial favorite, followed closely by its cousin, “Go on a romantic vacation,” and, “I always got pregnant the first time!” Or, “My husband and I just had to throw our underwear on the bed and we’d get pregnant.” (This person needs a basic biology refresher.)
Sometimes they offer alternatives that maybe hadn’t occurred to you: “You can always adopt,” and sometimes they try to make a joke, saying, “Are you sure you want kids?” Which is often followed by, “You can have mine.” Some people, earnestly trying to be philosophical, offer up this chestnut: “Maybe it just wasn’t meant to be.”
In my fantasy Bingo game, the players would howl and roll their eyes in recognition as the quotes were read aloud and more and more markers were added to their boards. Eventually, someone would fill an entire line with markers and call out, “Bingo!” But it wouldn’t feel like winning.
Whether you are newly struggling with conceiving or are a veteran of multiple procedures and losses, being on the receiving end of these comments can be devastating. Your own disappointment is painful enough; it doesn’t feel fair that you also have to endure the tactlessness or insensitivity of your friends and family. These people are supposed to love you and support you and help you feel better. Why can’t they? What can you do?
Maybe you’re fortunate to have friends and family who know how to support you, what to say, and what not to. If not, you might find it an enormous relief to communicate with others who do understand what you’re going through. Your area may have support groups for individuals and couples struggling with fertility issues; your therapist or physician may be able to help you find one (or use the links below). If you do not have a therapist, many mental health practitioners are versed in fertility issues and make a commitment to staying current with problems in reproductive health. Finally, you may find understanding and connection with others in online communities dedicated to support for people who have issues with fertility. There are many such supportive online communities; here are just a few places to start:
- For support around specific fertility issues and losses: http://www.nationalshare.org/additional-resources.html
- For up-to-date resources and support: http://www.resolve.org/support-and-services/
Pick Your Battles
You do not have to educate everybody about fertility in general or your challenges in particular. Sometimes, people going through fertility problems feel overwhelmed by just how much the people around them don’t know and don’t understand. You might feel caught between your desire for understanding and the very real limits of your energy and patience for the task of educating others. So, know that you get to choose when to let someone into your world—to help them understand what it means to you to struggle with infertility, to give them the facts of your experience and to dispel the myths—and when to decline. You, and only you, can decide if you feel you have the time, patience, or emotional energy to correct someone’s misperceptions. If you decide you do not, it can be a real act of self-care to allow yourself to not fight that battle. However, there are times when it matters to you greatly that someone close to you—a dear friend with children, your sister-in-law, your parents—can come to understand what you’re going through, and can learn how to support you in the ways you need.
Allow Friends and Family to Learn
When you decide to educate your loved ones—to help them help you—you may ask for them to approach you with open-mindedness. To ask you what, for you, would be helpful for them to say or do. To be open to you wanting to talk about your fertility one day and wanting to talk about anything else the next. To ask you how you are feeling and to show that your answer matters to them. To accept that you might diverge from your usual social patterns—not wanting to go to birthday parties, for example, or wanting to travel alone instead of meeting the entire family for a holiday dinner—while you negotiate the physical, emotional, and financial labyrinth of fertility issues. Most of us don’t come pre-programmed with understanding of infertility—we come to that knowledge the hard way, through experience. Once we’re there, it can be difficult to recall the cheerful ignorance we once enjoyed. It can be an act of compassion toward your loved ones and yourself to remember that they are coming to you from this place of ignorance that we once enjoyed, that their missteps come from not knowing, not from not caring. And the ones who matter will learn from you as much as you let them.
There are myriad, wonderful writings about how to support someone going through fertility issues. Here are links to a couple that you can read for more ideas, or send as letters to the people you choose to let into your struggle:
- Letter you can show to your friends who want to know how to be supportive: http://www.tertia.org/so_close/2004/05/how_to_be_good_.html
- A (slightly more strongly worded) letter to friends and family: http://www.stirrup-queens.com/2007/10/manifesto/
- A number of resources for family and friends to educate themselves, including fact sheets, fertility myths, how infertility can affect a range of relationships, and more: http://www.resolve.org/support-and-services/for-family–friends/
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