{"id":35925,"date":"2017-10-03T08:00:09","date_gmt":"2017-10-03T15:00:09","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/?p=35925"},"modified":"2024-03-11T17:13:48","modified_gmt":"2024-03-11T21:13:48","slug":"abuse-amnesia-why-we-stay-with-our-abusive-partners","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/abuse-amnesia-why-we-stay-with-our-abusive-partners-1003175","title":{"rendered":"Abuse Amnesia: Why We Stay with Our Abusive Partners"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-medium wp-image-35926\" src=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/holding-umbrella-looking-at-rain-300x208.jpg\" alt=\"Rear view of person holding umbrella looking out at rain\" width=\"300\" height=\"208\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/holding-umbrella-looking-at-rain-300x208.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/holding-umbrella-looking-at-rain.jpg 710w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/>People often wonder why those they care about stay with romantic partners who hurt them. It\u2019s a good question on the surface, but the answer is much more complicated.<\/p>\n<p>When people are in abusive relationships, they consciously or unconsciously use many coping strategies. In fact, most such coping strategies involve the use of their strengths: <a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/learn-about-therapy\/issues\/forgiveness\">forgiveness<\/a>, giving (more than 50% in the relationship), tolerance, patience, accommodation, and other pro-social skills for adapting to a difficult situation.<\/p>\n<div class=\"content-fatwidget align-right\">\n\t<h2><a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/find-therapist.html\" target=\"_blank\">Find a Therapist<\/a><\/h2>\n\t<form action=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/search-redirect.html\" method=\"get\">\n\n\t\t\t<input required name=\"search[zipcode]\" placeholder=\"Enter ZIP or City\" class=\"inline-input\" type=\"text\" \/>\n\n\n\t\t\t<input type=\"submit\" name=\"TOS agreement\" value=\" \" class=\"inline-btn\" title=\"Search\" onclick=\"ga('send', 'event', 'FAT Widget', 'Submit Search', 'Sidebar', {nonInteraction: true});\" \/>\n\t\t<a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/advanced-search.html\" title=\"Advanced Search\" onclick=\"ga('send', 'event', 'FAT Widget', 'Advanced Search', 'Sidebar', {nonInteraction: true});\" >Advanced Search<\/a>\n\t<\/form>\n<\/div>\n<p>Sometimes, though, not-so-positive traits are used to adapt to an abusive situation. These include minimizing, denial, rationalization, pretending\/fantasizing, \u201cspacing out,\u201d <a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/learn-about-therapy\/issues\/drug-and-substance-abuse\">alcohol and drug use<\/a>, and developing symptoms of <a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/learn-about-therapy\/issues\/anxiety\">anxiety<\/a>, <a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/learn-about-therapy\/issues\/depression\">depression<\/a>, and <a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/learn-about-therapy\/issues\/ptsd\">posttraumatic stress<\/a>.<\/p>\n<p>And then there is <em>abuse amnesia<\/em>.<\/p>\n<p>An exacerbating condition occurs if the person experiencing\u00a0<a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/learn-about-therapy\/issues\/abuse\">abuse<\/a> grew up in an abusive household. In this case, the person may have been conditioned to adapt to an abusive environment by utilizing the above-listed coping styles. People in this situation do not typically respond to \u201cred flags\u201d because they have become accustomed or desensitized to them during their developmental years. They have most likely honed the art of abuse amnesia.<\/p>\n<p>What, exactly, does abuse amnesia look like in practice? It occurs when a person has been abused\u2014<a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/learn-about-therapy\/issues\/physical-abuse\">physically<\/a>, verbally, <a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/learn-about-therapy\/issues\/sexual-abuse\">sexually<\/a>, or <a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/learn-about-therapy\/issues\/emotional-abuse\">emotionally<\/a>\u2014and in a matter of minutes, hours, or days, it\u2019s as if the occurrence of abuse never happened. The victim and the perpetrator carry on as if the incident never happened.<\/p>\n<p>Why does abuse amnesia occur? One reason is <a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/psychpedia\/brain\">brain<\/a> chemistry. Here are the brain chemicals involved and their effects (in extremely simplified terms):<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li><a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/psychpedia\/oxytocin\">Oxytocin<\/a>: bonding<\/li>\n<li><a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/psychpedia\/dopamine\">Dopamine<\/a>: craving, pursuing, longing, motivating, saliency<\/li>\n<li>Endogenous opioids: withdrawal equals pain, use equals pleasure<\/li>\n<li><a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/psychpedia\/cortisol\">Cortisol<\/a>: stress<\/li>\n<li>Adrenaline: stress<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>When an abusive incident happens, the hormones cortisol and adrenaline are released, putting the individual in a heightened sense of readiness. After extensive incidents of abuse, the brain response has familiarized with a pattern: hyperarousal (abuse and abandonment) and then relief. During the hyperarousal phase, the individual experiences increased levels of stress hormones. Once things have calmed down, the body searches for relief.<\/p>\n<p>During the <a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/learn-about-therapy\/issues\/abandonment\">abandonment<\/a> phase of the cycle, the victim\u2019s brain releases chemicals that cause the feelings of longing, anticipation, and the motivation to find relief. Endogenous opioid withdrawal causes pain, and the <a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/psychpedia\/neurotransmitter\">neurotransmitter<\/a> dopamine motivates the person to search for relief in the object of desire\u2014the abuser.<\/p>\n<p>Once the chaotic encounter between victim and abuser is over, <a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/psychpedia\/homeostasis\">homeostasis<\/a> sets in. The abusive relationship has become a system. All systems strive for homeostasis, which occurs at a state of equilibrium. Each person in the system adjusts in order to reach that \u201cperfect\u201d state of equilibrium. Abuse amnesia is an essential component of this balance.<\/p>\n<p>It is distressing to think bad thoughts about a recent traumatic event. It is much more calming to remember the good times. Thus, a person who is in an abusive relationship trains their brain to \u201cmove on\u201d and feel good again. Once the abusive partner comes back and stops actively abusing, the brain releases oxytocin and opioids, which have a calming effect. The stress hormones are diminished and the feelings of relief caused by the positive chemicals reinforce the victim\u2019s ability to forget the bad and hold on to the good.<\/p>\n<p>The pattern continues\u2014minimize the bad, focus on the good. Forget the pain. Remember the positive.<\/p>\n<p>Even with very little good, thoughts of hope are there to calm the senses. Memories from previous experiences of relief kick in and offer the promise of help coming in the form of the abuser\u2014the beholder of the hope.<\/p>\n<h2>How to Heal from Abuse Amnesia<\/h2>\n<p>If you realize you have abuse amnesia, then action is required to change. Here are some practical steps to take to stop the patterns of abuse:<\/p>\n<p><span class=\"popout-quote-left\" style=\"font-weight: bold; width: 30%; float: left;\">Realize you have value and should be treated accordingly. You do not deserve to be treated poorly by your partner. You deserve dignity and respect. Settle for nothing less.<\/span><\/p>\n<ol>\n<li><strong>Get support.<\/strong> You need to find healthy relationships to be part of and safe people to talk to. Abuse is damaging to your personhood. In order to heal, it is essential that you be around people who will not abuse you under any circumstances. Find support from kind, compassionate people who are good listeners. Consider <a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/find-therapist.html\">meeting with a therapist<\/a>.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Write a list of abusive incidents and keep adding to it.<\/strong> Write down what the abusive person is doing to you and keep adding to it. It might look like this: (1) Called me a name; (2) Blamed me for our last fight; (3) Didn\u2019t follow through with a commitment; (4) Threw a cup at my head; and so on. In healthy relationships, keeping a \u201crecord of wrongs\u201d is unwise because it is counterproductive to focus on a partner\u2019s failings; however, in an abusive relationship, different rules apply.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Write a recovery plan for yourself.<\/strong> To do this, you need to know what you want to change about <em>yourself<\/em>\u2014not the other person. This list can contain as many goals as you want, but three may be a manageable start. For instance, you could have goals such as these: (1) I will pay attention to my needs and take care of them at all times; (2) I will not sacrifice myself for a relationship; (3) I will live in an abuse-free environment. Your list should contain personal boundaries and bottom-line behaviors. Carry these written goals everywhere you go.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Stop pretending and live in truth.<\/strong> Tell yourself, \u201cI will not push things under the rug anymore and instead will hold my partner accountable.\u201d How do you hold someone accountable? You tell them, \u201cI will not put up with this behavior one more minute. You either get help or I will not be able to invest my emotional energy in this relationship until you do.\u201d Follow through.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Value yourself.<\/strong> Realize you have value and should be treated accordingly. You do not deserve to be treated poorly by your partner. You deserve dignity and respect. Settle for nothing less.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Find your voice.<\/strong> Start talking about your situation to others. Abuse thrives in secrecy.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Set boundaries. <\/strong>There may be many boundary violations in an abusive relationship. Learn to identify what boundaries you need to incorporate in order to break the cycle of abuse and protect yourself. Remember: boundaries involve your behavior, not the other person\u2019s. You can only change yourself. People who perpetrate abuse hate boundaries, so recognize the more you try to implement them the more you may be challenged.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Learn abstinence.<\/strong> An abusive relationship is akin to an <a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/learn-about-therapy\/issues\/addictions-and-compulsions\">addiction<\/a>. Both partners become addicted to the patterns and the brain chemicals involved in the toxic interactions. A primary ingredient for working a recovery plan is to implement abstinence. You must abstain from toxic encounters. One thing you can abstain from is abuse amnesia\u2014refuse to allow yourself to just \u201cmove on\u201d after an abusive encounter.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Journal.<\/strong> As you attempt to heal, write your feelings in a journal. Keep track of what is happening in your relationship. Notice the patterns and write your feelings down so you can realize what is happening in your life. Journaling can help you feel your emotions, process your thoughts, and get to a place of healing.<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n<p>The first step for any type of recovery involves awareness. As you become aware that you have been overlooking abuse, you actually implement the first step of recovery. Awareness precedes action and impedes denial. Awareness involves the idea of realization\u2014that is, understanding that <em>\u201cthis is really happening, it is happening now, and it is happening to me.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Many people who stay in abusive relationships have learned to adapt to abuse. Here are some tips for healing from abuse amnesia, a common coping strategy.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3035,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_uf_show_specific_survey":0,"_uf_disable_surveys":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[542,623],"tags":[252,912,396,41],"class_list":["post-35925","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-featured-articles","category-issues-treated","tag-abuse-neglect-survivors","tag-abuse-amnesia","tag-domestic-violence","tag-marriage-counseling-relationships"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/35925","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3035"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=35925"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/35925\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=35925"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=35925"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=35925"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}