{"id":34858,"date":"2017-06-02T08:00:24","date_gmt":"2017-06-02T15:00:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/?p=34858"},"modified":"2017-05-24T11:15:24","modified_gmt":"2017-05-24T18:15:24","slug":"my-dad-was-sexually-abused-as-a-child-should-i-talk-to-him-about-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/dear-gt\/my-dad-was-sexually-abused-as-child-should-i-talk-to-him-about-it","title":{"rendered":"My Dad Was Sexually Abused as a Child. Should I Talk to Him About It?"},"content":{"rendered":"

Dear GoodTherapy.org,<\/span><\/p>\n

My mom and dad divorced when I was 14. I’m in my forties now. Neither of my parents is in the best of health, and I don’t know how much time left I have with them. They don’t talk to each other. I’m on good terms with both of them, though closer to my dad.<\/p>\n

I was visiting my mom a couple of years ago when she told me a bombshell of a family secret: my dad had been sexually abused by a pastor as a child. This went on for years, apparently. It seems my mom is the only person in our family he has told about this\u2014assuming she is to be believed. I add this qualifier because she has a history of creating drama. I have not known her to outright lie, however.<\/p>\n

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I am inclined to believe her, as I know my dad was raised in a devout, church-going family and he has never been one to be very open with his feelings, emotions, or past experiences. If he was indeed abused as a child, I think it’s likely he’d hide it from his children, out of what I would imagine is a deep sense of shame.<\/p>\n

It’s my empathy and compassion for that shame that has kept me from saying anything to him these past couple of years. One the one hand, I really want him to be able to talk about his past with me. Part of me thinks that by talking about it, he might be able to make peace with it (assuming he hasn’t already) and perhaps have fewer regrets as the end of his life approaches. On the other hand, I don’t want to push him into talking about something he doesn’t feel comfortable talking about. The one thing I am sure of is that he’ll take this to his grave if I don’t bring it up. If I do bring it up, I would not be surprised if he denied it.<\/p>\n

What are your thoughts? Should I try to get him to talk to me about this? \u2014Hurting for Him<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Dear Hurting,<\/span><\/p>\n

What a fascinating question\u2014and touching, since your empathy for your father is so obvious. I\u2019m moved by how you want to help him find peace with what sounds like a pretty awful betrayal and abuse of trust. As the film Spotlight<\/em> illustrated, it\u2019s terribly painful when \u201cGod\u2019s ambassadors\u201d are the ones perpetuating such psychological and\/or physical injury, which can leave scars for a lifetime.<\/p>\n

I suppose my main question is: whose peace are you actually seeking? It sounds as if you are nagged by the question or impulse to help him. My question is, and I mean this in a deep sense: how come? This is not to sound skeptical; I just find it\u2019s helpful to understand one\u2019s own impulse to help. There are times when, in my own experience, the relief cuts two ways\u2014one for the other person and two for ourselves, since we are troubled by such a disturbing disclosure.<\/p>\n

Wanting to help our parents as they grow older is one way many of us want to \u201cgive back\u201d for what we are just now beginning to appreciate. It sounds as though you have an intuitive sense of how this might be bothering your father. I also wonder if your mother told you because she either was tired of carrying such a secret herself all these years or was hoping you might find a way to approach him. Did she say this to you in confidence, or is she okay with you bringing it to him?<\/p>\n

It\u2019s impossible for me (and you, it sounds like) to know how your father has or hasn\u2019t made peace with this. I have learned not to underestimate the ability of the human mind to compartmentalize. We have to, in order to adapt and move forward. Where adaptation becomes repression or dissociation can be ambiguous, since every person, every relationship, and every situation is different.<\/p>\n

I would still advise you to pause a moment to gently reflect on your motives and feelings. What are you hoping might come of an honest conversation with your dad? If he has never really dealt with it, it\u2019s unlikely one conversation will clear it up. It might\u2014or it might stir up all kinds of complex feelings around what happened. He may feel anger at the perpetrator and those who failed to protect him as a boy. It\u2019s also possible he doesn\u2019t know how he feels, or harbors deeper feelings that may arise in a conversation and take time to process (which doesn\u2019t mean \u201cdon\u2019t do it,\u201d just that he might say no before he says yes, or say no and want to reflect on it himself).<\/p>\n

He may also have feelings about your mother disclosing this to you. Again, I don\u2019t know anyone involved or the dynamics of the family, but sometimes there is an unspoken need among family members for a secret to come out in the open, and sometimes there is conflict around it. He may chuckle and say, \u201cOh, your mom \u2026\u201d or he may become angry about having his secret spilled.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s impossible for me (and you, it sounds like) to know how your father has or hasn\u2019t made peace with this. I have learned not to underestimate the ability of the human mind to compartmentalize. We have to, in order to adapt and move forward. Where adaptation becomes repression or dissociation can be ambiguous, since every person, every relationship, and every situation is different.<\/span><\/p>\n

Is it possible your mother wants your dad to discuss it while he is reluctant or outright disinterested? Are you then concerned about your mother\u2019s <\/em>distress? Is your mother enlisting you as a kind of stand-in for her own pursuit? The \u201cdrama\u201d you allude to regarding your mom might be a way for her to attract attention while avoiding her own feelings or vulnerability.<\/p>\n

If any of this is true, keep in mind the risk of wading into a longstanding struggle; sometimes adult children are the \u201cpower brokers\u201d or go-betweens in such situations. This has its benefits and risks, naturally. I recommend considering the downside of stepping in, along with the potential benefits. It\u2019s also true any decision you make will have potential ups and downs, and there is often no easy choice. I sense you care deeply about both of your folks\u2014and at the end of the day, provided you move with empathy for all involved (as best you can), this is what matters most.<\/p>\n

Should you decide you\u2019d like to try discussing this with him, I would broach the topic gently and see if he wants to discuss it before specifics are introduced. You can come from a place of your own concern, even curiosity, about his experience, and ask if talking would help him\u2014rather than coming at him with a pre-decided or firm intent to help (which can be received as critical, if a person hasn\u2019t asked for it).<\/p>\n

I often encourage people to ask, \u201cHow can I help?\u201d before deciding for the other person what\u2019s needed or how it ought to play out. (Not that you\u2019re doing this.) I often ask people in therapy (or even loved ones) if they want suggestions before offering my own advice. It surprises me how, so much of the time, people just want to be heard, validated, understood \u2026 so they don\u2019t feel so alone in their struggle.<\/p>\n

Of course, you may hit a wall with him. He may resist and then come around, or he might surprise you by being open right at the start.<\/p>\n

If you decide to broach the topic, the key is to be honest with him about your love and concern for him. It\u2019s a bit of a tightrope, wanting to be transparently honest without falling into \u201cyou need to do this, dad\u201d when the motivation may be your own anxiety. One thing to consider is whether some of the shame and darkness you imagine he\u2019s feeling is, possibly, what you are feeling. It\u2019s painful and difficult to think of a person you love being harmed in such a way.<\/p>\n

In short, the \u201clead\u201d as they say in journalism is your love and concern for him, <\/em>your empathy, in compassionately considering him and his (conscious or unconscious) struggle, and your wanting to lighten the load. One of the most loving things you can do is to ask if or how you can help with all this\u2014if you decide to talk to him. (If this is a real hot button between your folks, it\u2019s also okay to recuse yourself.) Let him decide whether he wants to open this door wider or at all, or would rather leave sleeping traumas be.<\/p>\n

I hope, whatever happens, he will be proud of a son who cares enough about his dad to take a risk.<\/p>\n

Finally, please know there is no \u201cperfect decision\u201d in such cases. Often, in the messiness and muddle of human affairs, we simply do the best we can. Sounds to me like you\u2019re a good son trying to do just that.<\/p>\n

Thanks so much for writing!<\/p>\n

Darren Haber, MA, MFT<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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