{"id":30469,"date":"2016-01-22T08:00:51","date_gmt":"2016-01-22T16:00:51","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/?p=30469"},"modified":"2016-05-23T02:31:00","modified_gmt":"2016-05-23T09:31:00","slug":"help-i-cant-forgive-myself-for-how-i-handled-my-breakup","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/dear-gt\/help-i-cant-seem-to-forgive-myself-for-how-i-treated-my-ex","title":{"rendered":"Help! I Can’t Seem to Forgive Myself for How I Treated My Ex"},"content":{"rendered":"

Your very sad story is touching. You\u2019re worried that you\u2019ve wasted four years of your life and clearly miss the man who was your partner, and you long for the good times you spent together. Nevertheless, your memories of the good are almost buried in your regret<\/a>. I\u2019m glad you\u2019re seeing a therapist to help yourself grow and develop and learn how to hold onto the good, so you can learn to care for yourself and how to take care of yourself, too, and become a better partner. It\u2019s apparent to me that you have accepted responsibility for your role in the way things ended, and that shows growth.<\/p>\n

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Part of human development is learning to accept yourself and your actions, your history, and use it as a springboard to move forward in your life. As your therapist says, forgiving<\/a> yourself is essential. Once you do that, it\u2019s time to shut the door on it. You cannot return to your past.<\/p>\n

Clinging to the past and especially to regrets about your behavior may feel unconsciously like a way to cling to the person who was once your partner, but in fact it\u2019s only a memory you\u2019re attached to. <\/span><\/p>\n

You seem preoccupied with thoughts about how your partner thinks of you now. You\u2019re worried<\/a> that the bad times will outweigh the good ones, and the good will be forgotten. This may or not be so for him\u2014we don\u2019t really know that\u2014but what we can be sure about is what your feelings are. You can remember the good and the bad that you both experienced, forgive yourself, forgive your partner, and move on. The best testament to the good times you enjoyed in your relationship<\/a> is the ability to hold onto the good and go forward with your life. The past has a vote, not a veto. It can vote to show you better paths in the future, but it cannot have veto power over the rest of your life.<\/p>\n

After some time of healing and mourning, I hope you will be ready to move on and use all you have learned to forge a new relationship filled with compassion<\/a> and love<\/a> for yourself and the person who becomes your next partner, if and when you choose to pursue another relationship.<\/p>\n

Clinging to the past and especially to regrets about your behavior may feel unconsciously like a way to cling to the person who was once your partner, but in fact it\u2019s only a memory<\/a> you\u2019re attached to. The person has gone away, and you deserve something real, solid, and present.<\/p>\n

I wish you patience<\/a> and success as you continue your journey with your therapist.<\/p>\n

Take care,
\nLynn<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Lynn Somerstein, PhD, E-RYT, responds to our latest reader-submitted Dear GoodTherapy.org question.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":526,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_uf_show_specific_survey":0,"_uf_disable_surveys":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[625],"tags":[540,522,432,544,25,41],"class_list":["post-30469","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-dear-goodtherapy","tag-breakup","tag-dear-gt","tag-forgiveness","tag-guilt","tag-psychotherapy-issues","tag-marriage-counseling-relationships"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30469","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/526"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=30469"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30469\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=30469"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=30469"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=30469"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}