{"id":26835,"date":"2015-01-31T09:00:57","date_gmt":"2015-01-31T17:00:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/?p=26835"},"modified":"2016-07-20T07:17:46","modified_gmt":"2016-07-20T14:17:46","slug":"self-portrait-for-the-soul-how-i-healed-with-art-therapy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.goodtherapy.org\/blog\/self-portrait-for-the-soul-how-i-healed-with-art-therapy-013115","title":{"rendered":"Self-Portrait for the Soul: How I Healed with Art Therapy"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"painting-oil-canvas-013115\"About a year ago, I was working as an art therapist in private practice and I had a 12-year-old client struggling with anxiety<\/a> and figuring out who she was in the world<\/a>. I asked her to create a self-portrait—a great exercise for a girl trying to define herself. At one point I realized I <\/em>had never made a self-portrait, at least not since grade school. So I went out, bought a canvas, took a \u201cselfie,\u201d and began my own personal process answering, \u201cwho am I?\u201d<\/p>\n

I began with a light sketch, trying to see myself from the observer view. Then I started painting, layering first in basic colors to assign shadow and light areas. I have a lot of experience painting, but painting a person is definitely challenging. Faces have complex layers of subtle shadows and highlights. I worked layer after layer. Too dark. Too light. Too dark again …<\/p>\n

One night I came home and looked at the painting in process and wondered, \u201cHave I gone too far? I just keep layering and layering, will it ever be finished? This painting is getting overworked.\u201d I paused, contemplating this chosen word. That\u2019s exactly what I had created: \u201coverworked Michelle\u201d. Working three jobs and always doing a lot, I was overworked<\/a> and my self-portrait reflected this state.<\/p>\n

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This is the beauty of art therapy<\/a>: even though you\u2019re not trying to do it, your self comes through in the art you create. There I was, \u201coverworked Michelle,\u201d in painting as in life. I didn\u2019t like how she looked … and I didn\u2019t like how it felt to be overworked Michelle, either. At that point, I stopped working on the painting and bought a new, blank canvas of the same size. \u201cWho would I be if I wasn\u2019t overworked Michelle?\u201d<\/p>\n

I challenged myself to make the Michelle I wanted to be, my ideal state of being. To avoid overworking the painting again I limited my work time to two sittings. In the beginning, I did not sketch anything, but started with paint on canvas, finding a portrait through color and strokes. Without a photo to reference I was free to make the face, body, and shading however I wanted. The result was a representation of how it feels <\/em>to be me on the inside.<\/p>\n

A few nights previously I had had a powerful dream about a mountain lion and when the hole in the chest appeared in my painting, I knew I wanted a cougar coming from the darkness. But how would I paint a cougar in such a short amount of time? Actually, I had already cut one out of a magazine and it was just hanging on my bulletin board nearby. Should I put collage in my painting?! I\u2019d never done that before!<\/p>\n

\"michelleI found freedom in creating this painting. All rules went out the window. I could be whoever I wanted to be! This is the truth of life<\/a>. We create imaginary confines around ourselves that don\u2019t actually exist. With the focus of actually creating the me I wanted to be, I found myself soft and open, vulnerable and dangerous, with strong roots hanging down, looking for soil.<\/p>\n

Art is a powerful medium. It reminds us that we are creators<\/a>, born to make what we want out of life. Art is an opportunity to ask yourself, who do you really want to be? I practiced what I wanted in this painting, and then my life followed suit. I am no longer \u201coverworked Michelle.\u201d Now I have one job, and it is my passion—the place where I share my heart with others and practice vulnerability and openness. I take care of myself first, every day. I don\u2019t feel overworked, because I love what I do. I continue to draw and paint what I want out of life because, in the very near future, it could all come true.<\/p>\n

Michelle Lynn Baker\u00a0is an art therapist and owner of MBodied Art Studio in Westminster, CO. She teaches art classes to children and adults and runs therapeutic art groups for parents and children. Michelle enjoys the spectrum of art as therapy from learning to healing. <\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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