But home is far away
In the Dark, we can’t make out the sea.
No stars point our ways to the shore
Wind comes from all directions
Cutting our bones.
By Wang Ping
January is a time of brisk, crisp, sparkling skies and clean air— an inspiration to get outside and get some exercise. January is cold wind and early darkness that feels likes an assault.
Sometimes I revel in the snappy skies, sometimes I grouse about having to wear shoes and boots and socks and sweaters. . . It can be depressing. I’m thinking about those times when the glass is less than half empty— it isn’t even there, which doesn’t matter because there is nothing to pour into it, anyway.
In winter, “wind comes from all directions.” We shrug our shoulders and hollow out our chests to make our bodies smaller and less exposed. “Home is far away.”
If you’ve lost your job or your good friend or relationship, if you’re feeling stuck in the same obnoxious spot, or if you feel like you’ll never get where you want, what you want, when you want, this is a particularly poignant time of year. You might remember all your good hopes, desires and wishes from last year, and feel especially hurt if they didn’t come true.
Grieve. Then close the door on what is lost or should be. Mark this day with a ritual. Write a poem or paint or take photographs. Go for a long run. Play racquetball.
Maybe you’ll experience a deep movie or a book— something to take your attention. Enjoy a good meal with a friend and talk all night. Spend the day in meditation, then light some incense and relax in a warm soothing bath. Move on.
Generous action is an important antidote to feelings of worthlessness, aloneness and depression. Find someone who needs a hand and lend yours— that will feel make you feel better. Knowing that you made a difference helps you feel more worthy.
Give something to yourself, too. Not an object, but an experience, a way to live differently. Set yourself one goal. Just one, that’s enough. There may be other changes you’d like to make, but take it one bit at a time; transformations are more powerful and more likely to succeed if you work focused, deep and slow.
In January many people make resolutions, and by February many people forget them. Resolutions can feel fiery, but they are often surrounded by cold water. Your resolve will be tested, and sometimes extinguished. Don’t give up. Start over.
Starting over gets easier with practice. Younger people often feel that all is lost, life is over, there is nothing left to do. A person who is a bit older and more seasoned has been through difficulties before, and may be more optimistic— knowing that after all is lost something gets found again. Life is a process: you fail, you win, you sail along— until you fail again and the cycle starts over. If you don’t fail, you probably haven’t tried anything new; failure is an audition for eventual success.
Recently a dear man who had been very ill, who thought he was going to die, told me that he needed to get used to being helped doing things that had been easy for him. Even though it was hard for him to accept help, he needed it, and he learned to feel grateful and become more loving to his family. He is thankful for his life, especially because it may be coming to a close. I am thankful that I can spend time with him.
Every morning when we wake up we’re starting over.
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