Passing As Nondisabled

A woman stands in a box.While some disabilities are immediately evident, other disabilities are invisible. Beginning in childhood, people with disabilities who have the option of passing as nondisabled often get in the habit of hiding their disabilities. For example, a visually impaired person who is being shown a map might pretend that he/she can see the map while actually listening for clues to the correct way to his/her destination. In this way, and hundreds of others, the disabled person lives as nondisabled.

What are the reasons for passing?  Generally, people with disabilities are depicted in media as either pathetic, or as heroes, people who’ve overcome. There isn’t much middle ground. People with disabilities internalize stereotypes just as much as nondisabled people do. Not at all sure that they can be heroes, and not wanting to be seen as pathetic, people with disabilities will often try to erase their disabilities from perception; to top it off, they get praise for this, too. Nondisabled people seem to believe it is the highest compliment to say to a person with a disability, “I never think of you as disabled. ” If we can downplay our disabilities, almost to the point of disappearance maybe, we figure, we can have a normal life with friends, people who find us appealing.

Unemployment among people with disabilities who are capable of working is at staggeringly low levels (and I’m talking pre-recession here). Practically speaking, if you are a person with a disability who can pass at a job interview, you should pass; it may mean the difference between employment and unemployment. That’s a painful fact, and I have had a lot of trouble swallowing it; but, I’ve learned the hard way that if you can’t get a foot in the door of the workplace, you can’t begin to change it.

So, clearly, there are times when passing is the best (if unpalatable) choice. What I want to emphasize, though, is that passing is only empowering when it is a choice. If one passes by habit or based on an internalized belief that a disability is a shameful, embarrassing attribute, then one has little chance of living an authentic, integrated life. People with disabilities who spend their lives passing can never relax, as any moment of letting down their guards may lead to detection. Additionally, their capacities for self-awareness and for intimate relationships with others are diminished by the fact that, on some level, they are always putting on an act.

Liberation from passing comes through casting out shame and through recognizing that without one’s disability, one would not stay the same person. I, for example, would not have become a counselor if I had been able-bodied—and I love being a counselor. That casting out process, however, is not a short or easy business. When I think of the agonies of self-consciousness I went through in first persuading myself to publicly wield my monocular (for reading street signs, wall menus, subtitles, etc.), I remember what a grand endeavor self-liberation can be.

In addition to the great emotional, personal, and interpersonal tolls internalized oppression and passing can take on people with disabilities, passing also causes a lot of practical problems. If I want to get to my meeting on time, and I can’t read the number on the bus approaching the stop, then I need to ask the stranger standing next to me what the number is, and I need to tolerate whatever that person’s judgments may be of a person who can’t read bus numbers. If I don’t ask for help, then I may get on the wrong bus, or I may miss the bus I need. At a certain point, my desire to accomplish my own goals and live my life as I see fit, surpassed my horror of what people would think. But, leading up to that point, I’d had a lot of anxious moments at bus stops.

Both my personal and clinical experience suggest to me that asking for help is particularly difficult for people with disabilities as, even more than others in this do-it-yourself society we live in, disabled people are terrified of being perceived as helpless, which is, after all, so dangerously close to the pathetic label that is our greatest fear. One thing I suggest to my disabled clients who struggle with the issue of asking for help is that they start looking for opportunities to help others. Whether disabled or nondisabled, we all need help sometimes. Helping and being helped is what holds humans together in a community.

I dream of the day when our disabled children will grow up without having to pass, and subsequently, be able to mature without spending 20 years unlearning that procedure.

In the meantime, there’s counseling.

© Copyright 2010 by By Wendy E. Smith, MA, LMHC, therapist in Seattle, Washington. All Rights Reserved. Permission to publish granted to GoodTherapy.org.

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  • Willard

    Willard

    April 5th, 2010 at 12:49 PM

    I have a childhood friend who is color-blind…now I know this because I have known him for decades…but he never tells this fact to his new friends…he tels me with pride that many of his new friends cannot figure out that he is color-blind and I have always been happy to know this…I never knew it could actually create problems! i will try to talk to him about this,thanks a lot.

  • AlphaMan

    AlphaMan

    April 5th, 2010 at 3:04 PM

    I have heard of people who do not meet or show up in front of new people because they do not want to ‘expose’ their disability or some kind of problem that they may have…does this come under this same category described in this article here?

  • Peyton

    Peyton

    April 6th, 2010 at 6:17 AM

    But look at the real self that you are denying by the cover up. Does that feel good? I would have to say probably not. And look at the opportunities for teaching others about the day to day realities of living with disabilities if all you do is spend your time covering that up.

  • hazel

    hazel

    April 6th, 2010 at 6:17 AM

    although it may seems like the better thing to do,to pretend to be non-disabled,it is not in the interest of the disabled people…this mainly has to do with other ‘normal’ people’s prejudice towards them…

    the prejudice and teasing starts in school and I have seen it first hand in a lot of schools…this practice needs to stop.

  • Wendy Smith

    Wendy Smith

    April 25th, 2010 at 12:37 PM

    Thanks to all who commented on this article. What it is like to live with a disability in our society is a topic that is not often discussed, so I appreciate your contributions to getting some thoughts out in the open. I would add that, while people with disabilities often end up in the obligatory position of having to educate others in society, this role can be burdensome and it is understandable that there are times when we need a break from being educators.

  • viral

    viral

    May 4th, 2010 at 8:08 AM

    it is one type of behaviour which is taught to disable in their early childhood and gradually become habit of the individual, ultimately hinders his development

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